i will reblog this 365 days a year
I WASN’T READY FOR THIS POST.
GUYS IT’S BACK
OH MY GOD YES
How you can let yourself have a minute to let everything out and then you can’t stop crying?
I had a super bad day between a friend pressuring me to go on a blind date that I’m not ready for and work being the usual pain in the ass.
And I’ve not let myself go for a whole so I figured, Why the hell not?
So I let a few tears slip because I just got rejected by a boy and money is alway an issue and my body sucks. The usual.
And then a name pops into my head. Josh.
And the sobs start.
The name who can take credit for raising me more than my father can. The man who married my sister who can take credit for raising more than my mother can.
The man who threw away his family for another woman and the crazy world of drugs.
The man, who with one phone call on my birthday, started this whole cry fest.
That one name led to all the feelings of betrayal and loneliness that I have never been able to share with anyone I know.
So I just want to say that is so unbelievably hilarious that letting yourself cry one little year can tear down your walls completely.
I just want this chance to ask… How am I supposed to build myself back up this time? How long am I going to cry myself to sleep again for the brother than abandoned me?
How am I supposed to let anyone in ever again?
#brother #depression #sobbing #whatamisupposedtodonow
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Everyone on this site is so crazy.
Everyone on this site is a genius.
Everyone on this site is high
And he is amazing. I like him a lot.
But I’m pretty sure he doesn’t like me. We only really talk at work and we call each other pet names.
I’m tempted to ask him on a date. But I don’t want things to get weird if he says no.
The obvious answer would be to just let it go.
But I’ve let possibilities slip through my fingers far too often. Now I have to decide is this one worth risking it for or am I going to go right now to no chances taken?
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